PAIN... Those four words continuously rolling in m mind today. It's not a special thing. My most of the days are filled with pain. But today is somewhat special. I thought of writing all m worries in a piece of paper. But it has the possibility of getting caught by my mom. Why should I show her that I am in a trouble?
This kind of cyber space is very useful in such instances. I shut down my computer and restart it again, thinking I should write here and wipe all my worries from my head. Yes. As always I still love him. It is the only reason for me to stick to this pain. He was my everything. He s and he will be. But suddenly my mind is alarming me about some kind of damage to our relationship. That troubles me lot.
It is not unusual. We faced many hard situations. But those days I used to cry and wipe all my burdens. But today, even though I want to cry, tears are not with me. Simply I don't have tears to cry. I only feel the pain inside my heart. Pain that making me even more weaker.
Life is such a terrible journey. I may have such pessimistic feelings because I am a sensitive person. But that's my nature which I inherited from my ancestors.
But thanks to god.. My heart is still tough to hold on. I still love him as I did when we were madly in love. That may be the reason for me to feel his changes this much.
All the thing I do to save this love is in vein. Because each and every time I want him to be with me, he is not there. I should get used to this life now. Because, in a gloomy world like mine, it's impossible to see a shining star..!! I should accept that eternal truth.
This kind of cyber space is very useful in such instances. I shut down my computer and restart it again, thinking I should write here and wipe all my worries from my head. Yes. As always I still love him. It is the only reason for me to stick to this pain. He was my everything. He s and he will be. But suddenly my mind is alarming me about some kind of damage to our relationship. That troubles me lot.
It is not unusual. We faced many hard situations. But those days I used to cry and wipe all my burdens. But today, even though I want to cry, tears are not with me. Simply I don't have tears to cry. I only feel the pain inside my heart. Pain that making me even more weaker.
Life is such a terrible journey. I may have such pessimistic feelings because I am a sensitive person. But that's my nature which I inherited from my ancestors.
But thanks to god.. My heart is still tough to hold on. I still love him as I did when we were madly in love. That may be the reason for me to feel his changes this much.
All the thing I do to save this love is in vein. Because each and every time I want him to be with me, he is not there. I should get used to this life now. Because, in a gloomy world like mine, it's impossible to see a shining star..!! I should accept that eternal truth.
